Sigh.. I’ve fallen for this girl for a long time now.. But she friend zoned me.. But really Alex, wake up and smell the coffee.. You’re chubby, your belly shakes when you walk, it folds when you sit, compared to many others out there my singing is shit,Im not one of those good looking a and f or tumblr guys. I call them gay but they get more attention from women in a day then I get my whole life.I’m not talented in anything..While she on the other hand, is a freaking goddess, she has big beautiful eyes, flawless skin, long soft hair and the voice of an angel…
Hmmm.. Why do we always do that? We fall for people who we barely have a chance at, we dream things that are highly unable to be accomplished…
I’ll just tie these feelings to a white balloon and let them float away from me..
I’m glad that I’m a person who is easily pleased, hell you could keep me locked in a room with a pebble, block of cheese and string and I’ll be entertained all day.. Maybe I’m like that because I get depressed easily or I’ve been depressed so much that I get cheered up easily?whatever it is.. I think the true way to be happy isn’t just by managing time, finances and savings but also.. Managing your expectations.. There’s many places I would like to go, many things I wanna do.. But I get upset because it’s hard to be able to do those things and they never happen.. I need to tell myself, that for now.. This is my lifestyle, it’s not grand but it’s something..
As for love.. That can wait.. Maybe I’m meant to be alone, maybe I just haven’t met the one.. But for now, the mediocre unpopular wannabe knight crushing on the princess is as pointless as a broken pencil..
In the meantime I’m just gonna enjoy the simple things like my dog rolling over, watching tv and iPhone games 😁
I have learnt my lesson and will give up. I only hope you’re happy with what you’ve found.
I wish for you happiness, joy and true love.. Something which I’ve been searching for too.
I realize with you, I’ve been thinking with my heart and not my mind.
That I was touching you with my soul and not my hands.
When I reached out my arms to hold you, my heart took their place, I should’ve known better.
So now I stand alone on this journey, a journey that maybe more than I can bare.
I find myself praying ( more for selfish reason) for something to take this pain away.
I’m lost in being lonely and too tired to even care. I just wanna be in love and be loved back.
This loneliness isn’t healthy..
I’m feeling much better but I still think about us from time to time.. Kinda sad that you completely forgot about us but I’m glad to see that you’re happy.. Sigh sigh sigh study study study.. Books are my friends now..
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